Most of you know that I am a substance abuse counselor. My clients and I are always talking about how when you go to AA or NA meetings and you are struggling, there tends to be a topic that you need to hear. It's really funny how that works.
I find myself in that position today, and these messages that we need to hear often come from the weirdest places! Mine came from the Extra Sugar-Free Gum website today!! The title of the article I read from that site is "Rethinking Your Weight Goal" and can be seen here: http://www.extragum.com/articles/rethinking-your-weight-goal
Why is this a message I needed to hear today? Well last week I was pretty down because after hitting my lowest weight of 118, I bounced back to 121. Last week, no matter how much I exercised or ate right, it stayed there. And I was pissed. Several people I talked to said that maybe this is where my body wants to be, and I need to be happy with that. But I wasn't. So yesterday I weighed in at 119.1 and today was 119.2, and in my head I was like "HAHA BODY - You ARE going to lose a couple more pounds whether you like it or not!!"
And this morning I was feel just sort of lethargic and tired - probably from stubbornly restricting my calories yesterday. So I read this article and it talks about finding a place where you can be healthy and happy rather then SKINNY. This got me thinking about why I want to get down to hovering between 115-119. I mean, can I be happy and healthy at a weight of 121 rather then 117? Do I want to be really thin or really happy? Is the effort I put in to losing a couple of vaniety pounds keeping me from just relaxing and enjoying life?
What this is NOT an excuse for is letting myself slack off on exercise and eating right and gaining a bunch of weight back. However, it is making me think that maybe I should just chill out and be happy with the weight I have lost and start worrying about feeling good rather then defininng myself by the number on a scale.