Saturday, December 28, 2013

Crawling back to normal!

This year I had made the conscious decision that I was going to be be a little more "wild" around the Christmas holidays.  I was going to eat more then normal and not be so exercise fanatical.

What I didn't anticipate was a huge ice storm.  An ice storm that would lead me to tremendous stress eating and limiting - even CANCELING - exercise for a couple of days.  

And then OH THE EATING Xmas Eve and Xmas Day.  When I woke up Thursday, I saw a number on the scale I haven't seen since early 2012.   

Did I ever tell you guys that after my skin removal surgery I was so full of fluid they had pumped into me that when I would tap my abdominal area you could see the water rippling under the skin - like a waterbed.  Well, on Thursday I was SO BLOATED that at work - when I went to work out - I actually had a ROLL hanging over my shorts and I could tap my stomach and just see the water rippling in there!  

I became convinced there and then that I would NOT lose the weight I had "gained" and that it was inevitable that I would get fat again.  And I said this to myself with a sort of resignation - I was sad, but also didn't really care.  Which was evidenced by me raiding the goody trays that still sat there at work.

My weight slid down a little yesterday and is down even more today.  I'm above my red line, but only by 2.5 pounds.  So I should consider myself lucky.   Today begins a return to normal.  I can't promise that I will be 100% on track - there are still some cookies here in the house calling my name.  BUT, we will take down the tree, clean the house up, and I have a delicious garlic-herb pork roast in the crock pot cooking for dinner.  In just a few minutes we'll be in our workout room resuming our normal Saturday exercise routine.

There is nothing - NOTHING - that can prevent me from getting back to an acceptable weight EXCEPT myself.  Time to make some goals and start to get back on track.  I might not be perfect, but I'll be better, and that is good enough for all of us!




  1. I love your last paragraph,it is so very true.I want to keep them ringing in my ears,I am still plagued by those extra pounds after surgrey. And feel the doomed forever with it and more. But I am in control of this ship where I steer it is up to me!
    Upside walked 4 miles,doctor is beyond please with how I am doing and how much I am's my sanity from lack of working out and sitting on my ass.