I've been completely out of sorts this week. I think that now - the end of February - I'm losing the battle to not let this winter get the best of me.
We had a massive snowstorm again yesterday and it was - 9 Farenheit when I left my house this morning. I was on the major interstate near my house the other day and I just wanted to keep driving south and not stop.
Fortunately my weight has been in my "acceptable" range this week, so I don't have that "weighing" on me. BUT I'm felt anxious and restless and just completely thrown. Plus I have been CRAVING carby sweets extremely badly.
And then today - I did the absolutely unthinkable. I went shopping instead of working out at noon. I am heading down to run on the treadmill in a few minutes but that will not ease the guilt that I am feeling for not doing 2 workouts today.
I know that this is not normal. I have exercised everyday since January 1st. Most of these days twice per day. If I run the 7 miles I have planned for tonight, I will have run 38 miles this week and will have a little over 285 miles running so far this year.
In my past life, if I WALKED 2 miles once per week I was thrilled with my success. But life is different now. Usually good. But I still am hard on myself and being cooped up and restless does not help matters.
So I'm taking a DEEEEEEEPPPPPP breath heading into March - hoping for better weather and with it a sense of serenity that is eluding me at present....