I am so unbalanced and confused right now. My body hurts. I am not motivated to work out, at all. I went out today to run and it's sunny and warm and yet every single step felt like such a hard effort. The wind was INSANE. I only made it 5 miles and then surrendered. I never surrender.
And I got notice today that I didn't get that job I interviewed for. I had pretty well decided that I wouldn't take the job even if it had been offered to me. Not having to actually make the decision makes it much easier. And yet - being rejected - it makes me feel like a LOSER.
I feel completely like I don't know who I am right now.
On the weight loss site someone who is still actively losing weight noted that she is harder on herself now then when she was heavier. Boy, I can identify with that!
So April is turning into a very, very weird month for me. I need to rediscover ME.
Geez, I really hope that this is true.
Anyone out there ever feel like they were lost? How did you find your way back?