Ok, not really, but I’m holding my own. I ran outside today. It is still fricking COLD here. But the sun was shining brightly.
Marc asked me if I was really going out in the cold and I told him I just couldn’t bear the thought of doing a long run on the treadmill today. He told me not to run then – do something else, he suggested. I asked him if he has noticed how incredibly fat I am getting again. Which pissed him off.
I headed out and straight into the wind. So the mental negotiations began. Only 6! I told me. 6 became 8. Around mile 7 the song “On Top of the World” by Imagine Dragons came on. And I listened to these lyrics:
“I’ve tried to cut these corners
Try to take the easy way out
I kept on falling short of something
I coulda gave up then but
Then again I couldn’t have ’cause
I’ve traveled all this way for something”
And I told me that I have traveled all this way for something.
I ended here:
Which isn’t very long. Or very fast. But considering this is the longest run I’ve done outside since DECEMBER? I’m taking it.
I’ve eaten well all weekend. Marc and I did a yoga last night and I really pushed myself. Many downward dog poses gave me the opportunity to stare at the new and improved “Defy Gravity” that is displayed on my foot.
This week I go to see a new doctor for my annual checkup. I am prepared to be scolded for my weight. It will hurt.
I am also prepared to start April right!!