This month has been so weird. There's been some crap for sure - like the miserably terrible weather. If I ever had doubts about moving away from this place it disappeared this month. BTW we're kind of focused on Austin, Texas - any readers out there from Austin?
Anyway, between weighing in again, attempting to write this blog and focusing for more than - well 6 minutes - on eating right, I'm feeling.... different. Things are changing. Let's get real, it's been a whole month (big fat hairy deal) but I'm hoping that how I feel produces results and continues.
This being good during the week and relaxing on the weekend is working. There is still the temptation during the week - I've stared longingly at cookies in meetings and peanut butter in my cabinets more than once - but it's easier to say no. So far giving myself latitude on the weekend hasn't led my to go completely nuts. And, guess what? The negative self talk - how much I suck, what a fat loser I am - it's not gone but it's much quieter.
On the exercise front, how many times have I talked about how running every day is not healthy? And all of a sudden I find myself here on January 31st having run 30 days this month - daily since the 4th. For a total of 155 miles. Now most of these miles were on the treadmill and slow - which might explain why I'm not in any pain or nursing an injury. Combine these miles with the 300+ I did this month on the bike trainer and yet I'm not exhausted all the time. In fact my energy level is great!
I'm even wondering if I could run another 1/2 marathon this year. Between my weight gain and injuries, that seemed impossible which has been incredibly depressing and demoralizing. We'll see what happens when (IF!!!) this fucking winter ever goes away and I can run outside consistently.
Optimism??? Is that really you my old friend? It's been a long time.
If I can keep this up, 2018 might be a very good year!!